Living and responding in shame

 

Maybe it starts as a whisper.  A subtle echo in the recesses of your mind.  From a place, from a person, from within.  That says you are not enough.  You are not good.  You are less.  Or maybe it comes as a shout, or a fist, or an attack.  And it screams to you, that you are unworthy.  

Wherever it comes from, it remains, and it grows and it festers.  It reminds you that you have reason to feel ashamed of yourself.  Perhaps you can cover it up or push it away or counter those whispers and shouts with other things that you are proud of or good at...but it remains.

And sometimes it bubbles up and overtakes.  It is as if you are stripped bare and shoved in front of a crowd of people and asked to tell everyone a joke, or to tell them how to make that salad that you brought to the potluck, or give them a book report of your favorite book from middle school.

Now, envision that you are being held by your most beloved.  You are safe and secure in their arms swinging together and all of the clamors of the outside world are far away.  And in that moment your beloved asks you to share a joke, or that recipe, or to tell them about your favorite book.  In that moment you feel secure and safe and free.  That. loved ones, is living and responding in the love of your savior.  In Jesus’ love for us we can rest and live and respond fully.  We can know our value, our worth and our identity in the safety and security of His love for us.  This is the freedom I want to live in.  For myself and for each of you.  That we would know and live securely in His love for us.  And dear ones, how deep the Father’s love is.  How vast beyond all measure.  This is what he says (through Paul) to His children about His love for us:

“And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”  Ephesians 3:17b-19  

My prayer for you this week is that you rest in the safety and security and FREEDOM of your Savior’s unending, and unrelenting love for you.  Not for you as part of a larger group of “you’s” but for *YOU* as a individual; uniquely created and individually loved by God.  You are loved and you are worthy of love because your Heavenly Father decided so.